When will it come, when will it be Buried inside, lost in a breeze
Floated away just out of reach Decided to leave it outside on a leash
Outside it stayed, out of sight out of mind
as long as I knew where it was I’d be fine
Can’t remember the day, the week or the year
Time to call on it’s presence, but was soon struck with fear
Where have you gone I screamed to myself,
A sharp pain in my stomach was all that I felt
I left it right there just off to the side
It probably just hid for a second I cried
Frantically searching I destroyed the place
Succumb with fear, I raced and I paced.
Under the foot of the table, the arm of the chair
The back of the closet, the pit of the stairs.
Out of ideas lost and alone
all I could do was to let out a moan
Then a sigh and I hung my head low
It was over, there was no place to go
Lost forever never again to be found
The tears started flowing without even a sound
overcome with emotion infuriated with God.
What do you want, would you look at this slob
It must end like this, I’m ready to die
they poured with a fury no reason to lie
but death didn’t come as I let it all go
a relief and a peace started to flow
I sensed something was different and looked up to see
The light overtook me the warmth was in me
and there it was I had found it at last
Is all I had to do was let go of the past.